I have already finished my final assignment (thank you, Lord). I feel better because there is nothing I have to pursue anymore (according to my “lovely” final assignment). I don’t have any reasons to stay all night long with eyes wide-opened. But my condition after my colloquium is still so pathetic. I don’t have any activities that excited me anymore. I’m sitting here all alone at home. Waiting for some friends inviting me to go somewhere. Chatting. Forcing some people so they want to chat with me. Facebook-ing (hyaaaa!!). Playing game. Remembering something good or bad. Eating (of course or I will die in seconds). Blogging. Blogwalking. Fashion-blogwalking. But I’m not a fashion-blogger because I’m not a quite fashionable to be a fashion-blogger :P. Nguping-jakarta-ing. And laughing until I lose my breath.
My brain becomes dull. My sense of humor does also decline. I lost my empathy with people because God’s creations I always meet everyday are ANTS! Do you know that I start to learn their languages and also their habits? No wonder there’s a pair of antenna on my head.
To be honest, I meet some people everyday. But their numbers are decreasing rapidly. And it makes me feel worst. I feel like I’m living in Pandora. But there’s no Neytiri and the other Omaticaya people.
I miss my friends so bad. I miss chatting with them and talking about silly things. And also doing some silly things like recording our own video clips or playing “bekap-bekapan”. Or just listening while they’re crying. Laughing at some scary things. Watching movies together. Cooking. I’m tired of playing the sims 3. I’m tired of being lonely. I’m tired of not pursuing something.
I lost my memory too. Oh God, I have already forgotten the last time I cry. And I forgot how to cry. I believe my friends will thank God for this reason. Good for you, fellas!